By Sarah Bull and Eleanor Gower
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She is married to a rock star, has a successful acting career and has just been named the World's Most Beautiful Woman by People Magazine.
But life doesn't always run smoothly for Gwyneth Paltrow.
In a new interview with People, the 40-year-old actress discusses the impact of suffering a miscarriage and having to work hard at her marriage to Coldplay front man Chris Martin.
A mum above all else: Gwyneth credited her children, Moses and Apple, for helping her feel beautiful
'It was awful,' she says, when asked about the miscarriage. 'It happened really late, and I wasn't expecting it at all.
World's most beautiful: Gwyneth Paltrow appears on People Magazine's cover where she gives a candid interview
'For a long time I just couldn't understand that it had happened and why. I was like "But I can't not be pregnant. I'm already past the first trimester, and I have three car seats in my head."
'To this day I feel like I'm missing that kid. But it wasn't meant to be and you have to trust the universe.'
The star said the miscarriage made her grateful for the positive things in her life, especially her two children - eight-year-old Apple and Moses, seven.
'More than anything I just realised "Oh my God, I'm so lucky to have two healthy kids,"' she said.
The star revealed last month that she 'nearly died' when she lost her baby, but hasn't entirely ruled out adding to her brood.
'We all think "Urgh, I don;t want to go back to diapers,"' she admitted. 'But my best friend's mom once said "don't do your planning around the pain in the a** of infancy, because it's so finite. Plan it around how many people you want at Thanksgiving."
'So then I think, maybe. But I don't know.'
Gwyneth revealed that taking her responsibilities as a wife and mother 'seriously' is one of the keys to making her nine-year marriage work.
She added: 'And I also totally accept him and what he does, so I'm not the type of wife who is like "Where are you?" I never make him feel hemmed in or like he's in trouble.
Not all roses: Gwyneth, pictured last year with husband Chris Martin, admitted the pair have been through 'terrible times' in their marriage
'And on a personal level as friends, we really get along. We really laugh, and we're super into our kids. There's a good foundation.'
However Gwyneth admits that the famous couple, who are rarely pictured together, have had their fair share of ups and downs.
'We've gone through some terrible times where it's been really really hard, but I've sort of come through those times with a much deeper understanding of myself.
'And we're still married. We worked through it. I think it's easier to get divorced. But I think the more you keep at it, the more you end up seeing the value in it. But man, sometimes it is not easy.'
It's not hard to see why! Gwyneth showed off her slim figure in a sleek dress at a Tiffany event in New York last week (left) and showed off her slim figure while promoting her new cook book earlier this month (right)
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